Up In The Air

My life is in everyone's hands but mine...

I HATE IT!

I can't stand the feeling of knowing that my future relies upon someone else.

My Dr. FINALLY sent my referral to the surgeon last Friday, so now I'm waiting for a phone call from the surgeon...

I am checking the mail box every dang day like there will a present waiting inside, but I STILL haven't heard from Rose State. Hopefully I'll get my letter soon; the wait is killing me.

I have an amazingly busy week for not having a "real" job or being in school.

Today: I worked in the Food & Clothing Room and went to Norman for Audri's "Shave It Off" event. Of course mom and I went shopping...she just HAD to shop for plants (I hate plant shopping with a passion).

Tomorrow: I have to do Business Law homework, work on my VBS curriculum, teach piano, and teach Bible school.

Thursday: I'm working in the Food & Clothing Room, typing a case study, and going to Shanna's concert.

Friday: more Business Law homework and case work, then family night with Mom, Naner, and Cassie.

Saturday: I'm going to Edmond for my dear friend, Autumn's, going away party then I have a ton of errands to run.

I'll be glad when next week arrives...maybe then I can have a break and know what my future holds...

You Can Pick Your Nose, You Can Pick Your Friends, But You Can't Pick Your Friend's Nose...unless you're BEST friends

Best Friends ever since I can remember

Through thick and thin

Through more than one scare, heartbreak, and boyfriend

Forever and Always

Love you Kelly Jo! I'm so glad I got to see you this week!

Light at the End of the Tunnel

My last final is tomorrow.

I could not be happier :)

After I finish the final, I'm heading up to Stillwater to see Kelly.

It will be a night full of laughs, dancing, and most importantly, no worries...just what we have both been needing.

Then Friday, hopefully, I'll get to see some friends in Edmond. Then I'll be headed home to work on some case studies and business law homework...oh the joy. lol

Then I'll be in the kitchen all day Saturday making cookies for Audri's bake sale.

Dr. says he's going to go ahead with my ablation...now I'm just waiting for my referral to a surgeon. I'm still waiting for my letter from Rose. I don't like everyone but me making my decisions for me...it's the pits :(

Heavy Heart

My heart is literally breaking for the King/Langford family.

I can't get Audri off my mind and I barely know her.

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Dear Heavenly Father,

I pray that you be with Audri and take her pain away. That you grant her the ability to play with the other children and feel like it's just a big slumber party with her friends. A two-year old child should not have to suffer.

I pray that you give strength and courage to Audri's family in this dark time.

Lastly, Father, I pray that you bless Audri's doctors and nurses--give them the ability to comfort her with healing hands.

Amen.

What if What We Thought We Wanted Was the Opposite of What We Really Wanted?

Today was my last day of classes for the semester.

I am in Heaven.

Well, not quite...to me Heaven will be a frozen yogurt shop/shoe store/diamond store/Coach store where everything is free and the weather is 75 degrees year-round.

Oh, won't that be bliss :)

Anyways, I have two tests this week, then a whole month break! I can't wait!

I'm not usually one to complain, but my heart hurts (not metaphorically speaking) and I had an allergic reaction to my medicine...so my whole body is itching. But despite those things, I predict a wonderful week.

Did anyone watch the new abc family movie, "Beauty and the Briefcase," last night? After watching it and talking to Kelly today, I have realized that often times what we think we want is the opposite of what we really want. Women (myself included) tend to have an idealized checklist of the "perfect guy" or as the movie referred to it, the "magic man." However, when it comes down to it--nobody is perfect, opposites do attract, and the things we once valued in a man are not necessarily the important things. Looks will fade...happiness will not. It has been my experience that the hotter the guy is, the worse he treats you.

Years ago, I wrote my checklist out and put it in my Bible...to this day, it is still there. I have yet to find a guy who meets every requirement, but I decided to open my heart up to them anyways--after all, God did place them in my life for a reason. Some of the reasons were lessons to be learned, others were to experience love and happiness.

Throw your checklist out the window and follow your heart. I'm not telling you to settle, I'm just telling you to give guys a chance even if they only meet 5 of your 10 requirements.

I'd like to leave you with one of my favorite song verses:

"All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughin' with you

I'm thinkin' that all that matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through"

Dear God,

Please be with baby Audri, as she is going through chemo.

Please bless her doctors and nurses and their hands, as she is in them.

Please be with the entire Langford family, as I know this is a family struggle.

This prayer has been on my mind a lot lately. The Langford's/King's are dear family friends of ours and they are now faced with something no parent ever wants to see--their child suffering. It kills me to think of an innocent baby having to go through chemo, but it's all in God's hands and I have confidence in his plans.

I have one simple request for you. Please include the Langford's/King's in your prayers. It's going to be a long year for them and they're going to need all the prayers they can get.

2 Tests and Counting...

My final presentation is FINISHED!

We presented it on Tuesday and made the final edits on our paper today.

Two more days of classes

Two more tests

and this semester is OVER!

I have a pretty good chance of having all A's, which is awesome!

Once I get through this semester, my much awaited letter from Rose State should arrive, and mass chaos will soon follow.

Hope you have a great weekend!

Looks like mine will consist of painting the boyfriend's new house--he just bought a house, how cool is that??

Like Mother, Like Daughter

As most of you know, I am a slight shopaholic.

However, I am on the road to recovery. I am proud to admit that I haven't bought any unessential items in 2 weeks...that's 14 days!!

Okay, seriously I'm not THAT bad, but I do have like to shop. lol

But that's not the focus of this blog.

Last night, I found out why I'm the way I am.

My mom got some of the baby clothes out of storage and decided to sort them.

Mind you, we have no babies in the family...mom has bought these clothes at Goodwill, on clearance at stores, and garage sales. They are all brand new and in excellent condition. This isn't even half of the them...

But seriously, that's a lot of clothes considering they are for no child in particular...

My mom, obviously, is addicted to buying baby clothes. Just like I'm addicted to buying things that make me happy.

My current wish list:

Sincerely,

Proud to Be Like Her Mother

Is it Sad That the Best Date of My Life Just Now Happened??

Last night was amazing!

It was a complete surprise--I knew I was getting sea food (one of my favorites), but other than I had no idea what was going down.

First of all, we went to the gun range. I know what you're thinking..."what a hick thing to do..." But it was so fun! lol. Neither one of us was expecting me to hit the target, since I haven't shot in years. So, much to our surprise, my first shot was a kill heart right to the chest. We were both a little shocked. lol. Two boxes of bullets later, we left the gun range.

*No people or animals were harmed during this date...only blue smurfs

Second part of the date, we went to Pearl's Crabtown. I LOVE this place. I got crab legs and calamari and was in heaven.

For the final part of our date, we went to the Redhaws game. For walking up 30 minutes before the game, we had amazing seats right behind home plate.

Definitely my favorite date so far!

I think I'll keep him :)

TGIF

This week has gone by so fast--I wish they all went by this fast. lol

It's Friday, which means I only have 6 more days of classes then finals! Yay!!

It looks like I may be able to pull straight A's this semester which is very exciting (especially since I've only put out around 25% of effort).

I have a pretty laid back weekend ahead of me; I'm babysitting tonight and tomorrow afternoon, other than that, I'm going to sit on my butt and possibly (*highly unlikely) do some B. Law homework.

I have come to a realization lately that I don't have to be perfect.

All my life I have strived to be perfect and do everything the right way, but now I have realized that MY way is the right way...even if it's not perfect. Because ultimately, I only have myself to please (of course I have God to please, but that's obvious)...not my friends, family, or teachers. I need to do what makes me happy...

*as long as it doesn't hinder my walk with God

On another note, I was reminded of fond high school memories (which are few and far between) of prom today. I had to dig one of my old prom dresses out of storage for a friend to borrow. My FAVORITE dress, to be exact. Then I was talking to my friend Amy who told me she was going to her husbands' law school prom tonight! We began talking about high school proms and realized we both went to the same prom one year--how crazy is that??

I loved proms. So much, in fact, that I went to 6 different proms at four different schools throughout high school. I loved getting dressed up with friends and dancing the night away.

Those were the carefree days...before I had to worry about majors, jobs, money, schools, careers, and my future...

But I love my imperfect life that I have now and wouldn't trade it for the world--even if it meant I could be carefree :)

I Can See the End

My 40 page term paper ended up being 53, and I still have two weeks before it's due.

I am almost halfway done with my Business Law class, which I have until October to complete (yeah, I'm good :)).

I only have one more Macroeconomics class for the semester, which made me realize I don't think I have learned one single thing in that class. Maybe I should have paid more attention...oh well, too late now! lol

To complete this semester I have one macro assignment, two finance assignments, two tests, and one presentation. I'm almost done; I can see the end!

Once this semester is over, I will be faced with an unreal amount of free time. No "real" job + no classes the entire month of May = Lana relaxation time :)

That is, until I get so bored I'm forced to get a job or I have to have my surgery done. lol

Sincerely,

Near the End of the Tunnel

This is Going to be a Long Week...

My doctor is waiting to see how I react to the new medicine before he schedules me for surgery...so once again, my life is on pause.

I have one more month before I hear from Rose State (ugh I swear the day will never come), I'm getting really down about it.

On the up side, my 40 page term paper is coming along great; I had a wonderful weekend with my man--we went to his nephew's birthday party; I got to see my beautiful nieces and nephew today at their 4H dress review; I am LOVING not having to go to work every day; and I have an amazing family.

I am blessed. Just very stressed. Maybe with blessings come stress? Who knows...

I sound like a wanna-be poet now ha ha

Here are a few pictures illustrating my beautiful life:

The Da's at their dress revue

Me and my man

Tuning Keifer's Birthday present (Spongebob guitar) lol

Sincerely,

Troubled Optimist

I Now Have Something Bigger to Worry About...

My cardiologist called today and told me I will have to have a cardiac ablation soon...

I expected this at some point (I've been doing my research), but I still didn't want to hear it.

I'm trying to stay strong and not worry about it, but to be completely honest, I am terrified. One little slip and I will have a pacemaker for the rest of my life...or worst case, I could die (that's a little drastic though).

They should be referring me to a Specialist later this week to schedule surgery...

Btw, I HATE April Fool's

I have seriously fallen for like a million jokes (more like 2 but still).

Stupid facebook and it's stupid relationship status.

Bah.

Sincerely,

Undeniable Fool

Go Ahead, Judge Me

I went to see The Last Song today.

I realize I am 20 years old and a little too old for Miley Cirus, but I couldn't resist.

It was actually pretty good!

I'm still enjoying not having to go to work, however, the $20 I spent today sure hurt a lot more than normal. Me parting with that money was like a fat kid giving up chocolate....

My good friend, Amy, got her acceptance letter to Dental Hygiene school at OU today. I actually squealed for her! Hopefully I'll get that experience next month...instead of the burst into tears and shred the letter real quick to make it all go away experience...ha ha

I have a test tomorrow so I imagine I should start studying...

I hope you had a great hooker boot Thursday (even though the day no longer has significance to me now that I'm unemployed lol)!

Oh and here's a shout out to my beautiful nieces, Shanna and Laney, who I recently discovered are dedicated readers of my blog! (guess I should start being careful with what I say ;)) lol